Carnivals: Claimed By The Deranged Alpha Prince [BL]-Chapter 63: Making Bad Decisions

Jules’ pov

I dreamt of my mother again, along with my sister this time. It left a very horrible feeling behind, but at least I didn’t wake up in tears this time.

Blaze’s arm was around me, holding me against his chest, and I felt my heart flutter as all that transpired between us at the bathroom resurfaced in my mind.

For the first time in my life, something which I had been extremely insecure of my entire life got revealed to him, and he reacted in a way that still made my heart ache whenever I think about it. After dipping me into the bathtub, he didn’t leave and instead remained there until I had soaked in it until the water turned cold.

I had felt extremely shy underneath his gaze, completely bare in his presence like that, but he never gave me a reason to feel scared of him at that moment, or to feel uncomfortable. If anything, as he helped me out of the tub and toweled me dry, I wasn’t sure I’d ever felt that thoroughly taken care of in a long while.

He had picked out a pair of shorts for me from my stuff along with a different shirt of his, and once I was dressed in those again, we slipped into the bed and I slept for hours. I woke up a second time, in tears once again, and Blaze was there to make everything better, comforting me until I fell asleep once again, sleeping throughout the rest of the day until this morning.

It was impossible to believe that the one student whom every other students labeled as a monster, was the same one who was currently holding me against his chest right now, was the same one who had saved me from those vampires, was the same one who had consoled and comforted me immensely, the one who genuinely didn’t make me feel like a freak. It was very impossible to believe, and I was very certain no one would believe me if I told them Blaze did all of those things.

As I shifted a little, my mind drifted back towards the dream I had. It made guilt hang heavily in my heart. I felt extremely guilty because somehow, it feels like I wasn’t doing enough for my murdered family when I have the chance to. It made me feel guilty because out of everyone, I was the only one who survived, and yet I was hiding away in here instead of being out there, searching for their murderers. While in here, the least I could do, which is to get some much needed information on Xander’s father, I was still yet to achieve anything on that so far, and it made me super guilty.

That made me decide within myself that I was gonna find Xander today and tell him that I’m ready for him to fuck me like he want to. That would be a great start because at least I’d finally be able to get into his room.

Of course, I didn’t want to do that. Thinking about being in close proximity with Xander made me feel closed in and uncomfortable, but it wasn’t like I really have a choice right now. It was either I start making a move towards bringing Justice to my murdered family or keep staying in my comfort zone while being consumed with guilt.

After a little more while of pondering on my decision, I exhaled deeply and tried rolling out of Blaze’s grip, but his arm only tightened around my bare waist. He slipped his hand underneath his shirt which I currently had on, and the feeling of his large palm against my stomach felt so heated, it made me shudder against his chest.

"Stay in bed." His voice sounded deeper and rougher with sleep and I shuddered again as the vibrations from his voice slithered down my spine.

I remained frozen for long minutes before mumbling something about wanting to meet up with my friends. Of course, it took more than that for his hold to finally come off, and as soon as it did, I partially skipped to the bathroom because it was still pretty embarrassing each time I remembered the fact that he had seen me naked yesterday.

Completely naked!

After quickly taking a shiver and dressing up, as I walked past Blaze’s bed, I felt his gaze on me, burning through my clothes.

"Remember the rule?" He called out from across the room and I paused at the doorway, heart slowing down as I turned around and nodded my head, eyes locking with his dark once. He was laying in bed, head in his folded arms as he stared at me.

"Can you repeat it for me?"

"I shouldn’t be late." I echoed out, having heard this same thing from him since the day after we began to room together.

He gave a single nod. "That’s a good boy." He breathed out and my heart fluttered in my chest while my cheeks pinked up.

"Aren’t you gonna give me a goodbye kiss?" He called out before I could exit the doorway and I paused once again, heart hammering against my ribs as I turned around till I was staring at him once again. I slowly cleared my throat after a little while, stomach clenching as I responded.

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"Come here, pup." He ordered, taking the decision right out from my hands at once. I sucked in a sharp breath, ignoring the way my stomach clenched up even more, cheeks feeling like it was on fire as I began to walk towards him. His gaze felt piercing and magnetic, pulling me right to him.

I stood beside his bed, blinking down at him, wringing my fingers while my heartbeat accelerated. He motioned for me to come closer with his index finger and I exhaled slowly as I crawled into the bed.

Blaze was currently lying on his back, a hand underneath his head. He reached up almost immediately, hand curling around the back of my throat to tug me down. When he kissed me this time, it felt like he was claiming me with his lips, and I felt every movement of his lips through every inch of my body. He sucked my bottom lip into his mouth and I moaned breathlessly, right before he deepened the kiss, going at a really maddening pace that had me trembling against him while my heart raced, all thoughts completely evaporating from my head. When the kiss ended this time, he tugged on my swollen, well-kissed bottom lip with his teeth until it stretched out between us, and as it snapped back, so did a whine bubble out of me, a breathless sound which caused Blaze’s eyes to darken as he regarded me intently.

When I got off the bed and exited the bedroom this time, I didn’t look back. As I stepped out of the door, I had to pause to catch my breath and get myself together because I felt completely disoriented.

Once I finally had my breathing pattern under control, I dug out one of the scent blockers which I had thrown into my pockets while getting ready and doused myself with it, erasing Blaze’s scent from my body. I wasn’t supposed to smell like one Alpha when going to another one in this situation.

I knew that what I was about to do made no sense, it was irresponsible and Blaze definitely wouldn’t like it one bit if he finds out, which is why he mustn’t find out.

But I really have to do this. For my family.

Now, off to find Xander.