Catgirls And Dungeons (Yuri)-Chapter 151: Morvena’s struggle

"I just wanted to end it all… I thought I couldn't bear it anymore…"

Her breath falters, like she's falling back into that memory even now.

"And at some point… I saw it.

"I don't know if it was real or just in my head, but I was standing at the edge of a cliff. The world was black. And in front of me is a bottomless abyss…

"And the darkness whispered to me…

'Jump, Morvena.'

'Just one step.'

'Just stop fighting for a moment… and the pain will go away.'

"It promised me peace. An end to the agony. An end to everything.

"It was sweetest, most alluring offer at that time…

"And I almost listened.

"I already put one foot forward…

"I almost fell."

…

Her voice trails off, the silence that follows is deafening.

Our hearts clench as her words settle in.

Alter is crying again, silent tears slipping down her cheeks as she bows her head.

"I'm sorry…" she whispers, voice thick with guilt. "I should have been with you. I should have been there, during those darkest moments. And yet…"

She can't even finish the sentence.

Our teeth sinks into our lips, as anger and frustration burning inside us.

That pain in her words—it's heavy. Too heavy.

Right…

All this time… Alter has been blaming herself, carrying this unbearable weight, thinking she abandoned the one she loved most.

Abandoned her dear Morvena…

….

However…

"Hey, what are you talking about?" Morvena smiles gently, shaking her head. "You were always here with me."

Alter blinks. "What…?"

"Yes. Always," Morvena says, her voice soft and steady now. A faint smile blooms on her lips, fragile but full of warmth. "Even when you weren't physically here, I could feel you. I knew you were out there… thinking of me, remembering me. And for me, that was enough."

"Morvena…" Alter whispers, her voice thick with emotion.

Morvena nods slowly.

"So… at that moment… when I was about to fall, when everything felt lost… I suddenly saw your face again. I heard your voice calling my name, desperate, trembling, so full of love…"

She closes her eyes, as if the memory itself brings light into her darkness.

"You reached out. You held my hand. You refused to let me go."

Her breath catches. Her words tremble.

"And that's when I realized…

"You were always out there, weren't you? Fighting. Searching. Daring to face horrors that even gods would fear. Risking everything… just to find a way to save me.

"So then… who was I, to just give up? To sit still and wait? To accept death… while you kept pushing forward for me?

"If I gave up… then I wouldn't deserve your love. Or your salvation."

She opens her eyes again.

"And so… I started fighting too.

"I turned away from the cliff. From the easy escape. And I walked back into the dark. Back into the pain. I forced myself to move forward.

"Every time I looked back, the cliff was still there… waiting. Whispering. But I didn't give in.

"And eventually, as I walked and walked through that endless void… I found it.

"My demon….

"And you know what?" Morvena draws a long breath, as if remembering the face of it. "It was …. the worst version of me. The ugliest… the cruelest. The most twisted, hollow thing imaginable. A being made of nothing but hatred … and instinct. It didn't speak. It didn't feel…. It only knew how to destroy."

"So I faced it."

"So I fought it."

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"What?" Alter breathes. "And what happened next? Did you… win?"

Morvena smiles faintly and shakes her head. "At first… no. Not even close."

She exhales softly, her voice distant, like she's still half-lost in that memory.

"It crushed me," she admits. "Like I was nothing. Like a person squashing a bug beneath their boot."

"Right…" Alter murmurs, her gaze darkening. "The darkness… it was too strong."

Morvena lets out a dry, breathy laugh. "Yeah. It was. But… here's the thing. It couldn't kill me either."

Alter's eyes widen slightly. "What…?"

"If it could have," Morvena says, her voice steadying, "then it would've done so a long time ago."

She leans back a little, her expression softer now—tired, but not defeated.

"I realized that after a while. So I kept going. I kept fighting. Not once. Not twice. But over and over.

She closes her eyes.

"Every day. Every minute. Every second of my existence. I fought it.

"Thousands of times. Millions. Billions. I lost count somewhere along the way…

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"And you know what they say…"

She opens her eyes again.

"What doesn't kill you…"

"…makes you stronger," Alter finishes, her voice quiet.

Morvena nods, smiling.

"That's probably what happened," she says. "Because every time I was defeated, I always came back, … a little stronger… just a tiny little…"

"And eventually… I started winning.

"I crushed it. The demon inside me.

"I pushed it back, little by little.

"And every time I did… I regained something.

"A breath….

"A heartbeat…

"A glimpse of clarity…

"And then… one day… I was able to open my eyes."