Rebirth: I Am Not the Movie Queen This Time-Chapter 78 Awakening

Bai Zhixi woke up in the evening this time.

Chuchu called out anxiously, "Mom," but Bai Zhixi did not look at her and even pushed her hand away forcefully.

Seeing this scene, Xiao Bai blinked his eyes, cautiously approached, and asked, "Aunt Bai, what wrong did Chuchu do? I will scold her for you."

Only then did Bai Zhixi realize that Xiao Bai was present. She sighed and said, "This unfilial daughter..."

Helplessly, Chuchu called out again, "Mom."

Bai Zhixi immediately frowned and sternly asked, "Tell me, are you going to attend university or not?"

Immediately, Xiao Bai understood what this was about and also realized Bai Zhixi’s deep concern; he turned his gaze towards Chuchu.

Chuchu clenched her teeth and said, "I plan not to continue studying..."

Indeed!

Thinking about it was one thing, but hearing it was another. Bai Zhixi’s breathing became rapid again. She then pressed on, "Are you also planning not to live anymore?!"

Bai Zhixi, who knew her daughter well, had guessed Chuchu’s intentions from various clues.

During the previous period, she had been patiently trying to persuade and change her daughter’s mind bit by bit. These past few days, feeling her body couldn’t hold on much longer, she got anxious and changed her strategy.

"Aunt Bai!" Xiao Bai exclaimed in shock.

Chuchu also widened her eyes in shock.

Bai Zhixi stared straight at Chuchu, pressingly asked again, "Are you also planning not to live?!"

Chuchu turned her head away.

In a fit of anger, Xiao Bai slapped Chuchu on the head and shouted, "Fool!"

Bai Zhixi took a sharp breath and let out a bitter laugh, saying, "You are not my daughter, not a daughter of Bai Zhixi, nor a daughter of Wan Shiguo."

"We don’t have such a cowardly and selfish daughter; leave, I don’t want to see you again, go!"

After saying that, she turned her head away, not looking at Chuchu anymore, as if even one more glance was repulsive.

Chuchu knelt down before Bai Zhixi, crying:

"Mom, if you’re gone, what meaning is there for me to live alone..."

Bai Zhixi interrupted her, demanding, "Then what was the meaning of your father and I having you? Just so you could casually die? You are the continuation of your father’s and my life, yet you selfishly want to end that continuation." freeweɓnovel.cѳm

Chuchu’s heart shook, and she looked up at Bai Zhixi.

Bai Zhixi continued, "Do you think your life is only yours? So you think life alone is meaningless and selfishly want to end it? Can’t you live on properly for your father and me when we are gone?

When we’re gone, you should strive even harder to live, not just to live, but to make something of it. Fulfill the regrets we didn’t have time to resolve, do the things we didn’t get to do, see the sceneries we didn’t get to see. That is the greatest comfort you could give to your father and me.

Otherwise, if you go down below, what face would you have to meet us?

People say: The body and hair are the gifts of one’s parents, and we dare not destroy them—that’s being filial. If you really do something drastic, you’ll only let your father and me die with lingering regrets, leaving us devastated to have raised a failed daughter.

If you go lightly, who in the world would remember your father and me? Who would keep us in their thoughts?

Your father was such a strong person, yet you haven’t learned a bit of his strength; how could I face your father?"

Apart from that, life is not about escaping from suffering, but about bravely facing it and conquering it."

At last, Bai Zhixi burst into tears, "Think carefully about what you should live for!"

Bai Zhixi’s words struck Wan Chu’er like a bolt from the blue.

What really is the meaning of life?

Is it just for kinship?

Or to carry on the legacy of ancestors?

Or is it to experience the bitterness, sweetness, sourness, and spiciness of life, conquer suffering, and then shine?

She stood there stunned, kneeling on the ground, looking at Bai Zhixi’s pale and painful face, unable to snap back to reality for a long time.

So life can also be interpreted this way, otherwise, she really let down Bai Zhixi and Wan Shiguo; in her previous life she was always chaotic, which totally disgraced her parents.

She remembered something Father Jiang once said: "What a pity for Wan Shiguo."

At that time, she found Father Jiang’s words inexplicable and did not take them seriously. Now it seems Father Jiang also felt that she hadn’t inherited any of Wan Shiguo’s virtues and did not deserve to be Wan Shiguo’s daughter.

Later, she spent her days in a lackadaisical manner, like a walking corpse, with no difference whether she was alive or not, and she never gave a thought to Bai Zhixi and Wan Shiguo.

Xiao Bai was also dazed by Bai Zhixi’s words, reminded of his deceased mother and her last words to him.

Wan Chu’er quickly understood, overwhelmed with shame like a flood, causing her to feel disoriented.

Her face burned with shame; despite being a top student admitted to the first university in Beijing, despite living through two lifetimes, she seemed worse each time, failing to understand even the basic principles of life.

Claiming she lived for Bai Zhixi was probably enough to infuriate Bai Zhixi yet again.

Timidly, Wan Chu’er looked at Bai Zhixi and said, "Mom, I know I was wrong."

The crying Bai Zhixi stopped, disbelievingly looking at her daughter, and Xiao Bai also snapped out of it.

"Mom, I truly was foolish, only thinking of myself and never of you and dad. Rest assured, from now on, I will live earnestly and live out yours and dad’s portion as well."

Bai Zhixi looked her daughter over carefully, seeing she was serious, finally relaxed, and then hugged her daughter again.

"This is my daughter."

In the following days, Wan Chu’er seemed to have truly turned over a new leaf, having previously thought about giving up on life and neglecting many things, or just making do.

Now determined, she reignited her will to live well and began to meticulously plan future activities with Bai Zhixi.

Listening to her daughter’s plans, Bai Zhixi became elated, but her health worsened, worrying Wan Chu’er while she opened her heart more fully to Bai Zhixi, just to bring her more smiles.

One day, Xiao Bai delivered Wan Chu’er’s university admission letter.

Bai Zhixi carefully touched the admission letter, her face filled with relief. In the afternoon, she insisted on being discharged from the hospital to return home.

After consulting the doctor, Wan Chu’er somberly pushed Bai Zhixi back home.

Once home, Wan Chu’er tidied up the room first, then carefully carried the emaciated Bai Zhixi to the bed.

Bai Zhixi looked around and smiled, "Home is still the best." Then, she asked Wan Chu’er to take out a small cloth bag from the cupboard.

She unwrapped the cloth bag layer by layer, revealing a crystal-clear green jade pendant inside, about the size of a thumb and shaped like a tiger’s roar.