Carnivals: Claimed By The Deranged Alpha Prince [BL]-Chapter 333: pain

Kim’s pov

I kicked a rock so hard, and a sharp pain shot through my foot and I cried out as I reached down and grinned my leg. Pain resonated from my leg and chest at the same time and I leaned against the tree, my entire body suddenly feeling weak to the core. Angry tears stung my eyes in that very moment and I blinked it away in the very next moment. I sniffed angrily and wiped my eyes with the back of my hand.

I couldn’t believe that this was currently happening to me. I couldn’t believe that I was getting teary over a man. A fucking man.

Oh, how low I’ve fallen.

Men used to shed tears for me. Men used to be in tears while begging for a kiss from me. I couldn’t believe that I was the one crying right now, over someone that apparently has someone he has been in love with this whole time.

It made my chest hurt so much that I struggled to breathe, instantly feeling appalled that tests were once again welling in my eyes.

My leg still hurt from locking it against a stone and I leaned down to massage it for a few minutes before rising to my feet. I had chosen to come out here after the dinner I had just existed, because I needed the open air so I could think. I needed it because it felt like I was going crazy.

Roy and San weren’t just dating. They’ve apparently been on and off with each other for a really long while. The fact that I had already fallen for Roy made my chest hurt even more right now because that’s the only reason I’m feeling this heartbroken right now.

I had been worried sick about him these past weeks. Since he suddenly disappeared right before his rut, I had spent each day thinking about him and missing him that I even forced myself to ask Blaze of his whereabouts. I kept hpoing he’d return soon, and I’ve told myself countless times that by the time he does return, I was gonna work past my stupid feelings and confess to him.

I didn’t just like him. This was nothing like a crush. I was actually in love with him: and I planned to tell him that whenever he returns. I also planned to apologize for taking this long and making him feel that he needed to chase me or wait for me. I also even planned to reveal to him that I knew I was difficult but still appreciated that he waited for me till this very moment.

Throughout those moments that I spent harboring those thoughts, I had hoped that he hadn’t kept to his words when he told me he was gonna spend his rut with an omega. But even if he had done that, I was prepared to let it go, I was prepared to accept that he did it because spending one’s rut alone was very hard.

What I didn’t count on was he returning with a boyfriend, and acting like we were complete strangers. He barely looked at me throughout dinner. All his focus was on his boyfriend, and that made my heart to bleed right now from just thinking about it. On a normal day, Roy couldn’t keep his eyes off me. And I guess that stroked my ego more and more and that’s probably what made me dance away from him more and more; because the thrill of the chase was very exhilarating, because it was from someone I liked.

I didn’t count on his boyfriend revealing that he and Roy and been together on and off for years. Years. Which means those times I spent being chased by Roy were because he was trying to get over his true love, San. It made me feel extremely disgusted, realizing that I had meant nothing to him except a means to an end.

This whole situation clearly meant of all people for me to fall for, I had ended up falling for someone who’s in love with someone else.

Can life get crueler??

I made my way down the wall, heading straight to my bedroom. My bedroom is beside Roy and right now, I hated that so much because this meant if he and San fucked, I’d be able to hear all of it.

I slowed to a stop on noticing Roy emerging from the opposite direction, San plastered at his side and they were laughing softly. I quickly slipped behind a pillar before I could be sighted, and I watched with a scowl over my face as Roy held the door of his room open and waited for San to go in, before he followed him in and closed the door right after.

I exhaled a long breath, remaining in the same position before finally easing out of the spot behind the pillar. As I made my way to my bedroom, I felt like a robot. Numb. Emotionless. Empty.

It was after I got into my bedroom that anger slammed right into my ribs, and as I angrily paced left and right, one word echoed through my mind over and over again.

"How dare he?"

How dare he make me feel like he actually liked and cared for me? Like he was actually genuine? Like he had actually fallen for me, meanwhile it had all been a lie! How dare he?

I wasn’t gonna lie to myself at this point. I was hurt by this situation. I was heartbroken even. I felt shitty to the core. The feast at dinner has been completely unappealing to me, which was why I spent the entire time drinking and drinking. I wasn’t sure I’d ne able to sleep tonight, and I was very certain if I sit in silence right now, I might get the urge to cry again. So this is how it feels to be heartbroken, right?

Which is why I was gonna get back at Roy no matter what.