Carnivals: Claimed By The Deranged Alpha Prince [BL]-Chapter 334: the call

Kim’s pov

The next two days passed by in a blur. I was a mess, but only behind closed doors. In public, I was the same bubbly and cool Kim. But once I get alone, I sometimes end up crying myself to sleep. That only happened once but it left me feeling extremely disgusted with myself.

It made me feel extremely weak and made me glad in a way that this thing with Roy and myself didn’t end up working, because it felt extremely daunting that I’d be acting like this after getting together with Roy. In the past two days, I’ve felt emotions I haven’t felt in my entire life that it was almost crazy to comprehend.

I was sitting in the large arena where so many music instruments were placed at, and I wasn’t sitting by myself. Labyrinth was beside me. He was saying something to me but I wasn’t listening, because my focus was on San and Roy. Roy was saying something to him and he was laughing way too loudly for my liking, like he was trying to rub it into my face that he was with Roy and I wasn’t.

Roy was playing the guitar to him and he was making animated moves while speaking to Roy at the same time. Jealousy curled within the lower hit of my stomach and I exhaled shakily, hating that I was still feeling this way and it’s been days.

I had hoped that after a few days, I’d stop caring about Roy and his cute boyfriend and that I’d have completely moved on from the two of them. But I had been so wrong, which is because this is my first time experiencing heartbreak. The heart apparently doesn’t heal that fast, it actually takes days before it heals. Having to see Roy and San multiple times a day was making everything worse for me and I blamed Roy for all of this. He’s the reason I’m currently feeling this biting pain within me. He’s the reason I seemed to have lost weight in the past few days. He’s the reason for all of this and I hated him so much because of that.

When Labyrinth nudged at my shoulder, I flinched before returning back to the present and I sighed as my eyes met labyrinth. He had a knowing look on and I rolled my eyes, instantly wishing I could get away from this room right now.

"I wasn’t staring at them." I muttered, feeling the need to defend myself. Labyrinth had his lips pursed and he nodded slowly, looking like he almost wanted to laugh before deciding against that.

"I never said you were." He pointed out and I slapped at myself on the inside, feeling stupid for having fallen right into his trap without him having to try.

He had been worried about me for the past few days and I’ve been assuring him that I was fine and that I didn’t care about anything Roy did because it didn’t concern me in any way. Labyrinth had thankfully stopped asking me if I was fine, but the concern was still clear in his eyes, along with something I couldn’t put my fingers on.

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I was walking down the garden, trying to garter my thoughts together. I never use to need this much time to garter my thoughts together till Roy surfaced with San. It was why I was taking a walk that my phone vibrated in my pocket. I stopped for a moment before resuming walking after the call ended. I wasn’t in the mood to receive calls, but it wasn’t like I used to get a lot of those because I barely had friends. I let out an irritated sigh when my phone began to ring again and on whipping it out, I was surprised to see that it was Xander.

I wasn’t that surprised to be honest, because he calls every now and then, but I never takes his calls. Over text, I’ve told him that I didn’t want to have anything more to do with him aside from being acquaintances. But he didn’t know how to take no for an answer which is why he’s currently calling again, like he does at least twice a month. I usually ignore his call and was about to shove my phone back into my pocket before I decided against it at the very last moment and I ended up accepting it.

His deep and familiar rushed through my ear as he greeted me. I checked through my mind for any kind of reaction to his voice. I never liked Xander romantically before but there was a time his voice used to send shivers down my spine. There was a time it used to turn me on. However presently, it made me feel nothing. Completely nothing.

But I kept speaking to him. He asked about how I’ve been fairing and even told me he missed me and wanted to see me. That made me roll my eyes because the Xander I knew never missed anyone except whenever he was horny. ƒreewebηoveℓ.com

My mind travelled back to Roy and San. They’ve been fucking since they got here, haven’t they? I never stay in my room long enough to overhear them because I knew that would completely break me.

But I was always sad and wallowing in self pity, while also drowning in loneliness on top of that. Wasn’t that beyond pathetic?

And that was what made me focus more on what Xander was saying. He asked me if he could come over and see me here in the warlocks’ clan. He has always asked and I’ve always declined without thinking twice. But now, I was actually thinking about it.

And the more I think about it, the more it kept spinning perfectly to me. If he comes over, I’d be able to fuck. I’ve not been attracted to anyone aside from Roy in ages but this must change now. In the time he’d spend here, I’d not feel alone anymore.

I ended up telling him I’d think about it and give him a response tonight before the call ended.