Carnivals: Claimed By The Deranged Alpha Prince [BL]-Chapter 344: Overwhelmed

Jules

When Blaze texted to ask how I’m fairing, I didn’t let him know that anything was happening with me. I told him

I was alright and doing just fine. I also made sure Kim didn’t tell him as well, because I knew he was in contact with Kim to directly ask if I was now eating.

The drugs the doctor left behind helped with the vomiting and I was able to keep food down. But sometimes the urge to vomit gets so strong that drugs aren’t able to push it back,

In only two days, I felt like I had gone through one million emotions and I was already completely over the pregnancy. I was so grateful for Kim’s presence, he was a strong pillar beside me, giving me strength when I get too weak and ensuring that I don’t starve myself to death.

"Remember now you’re eating for two, you don’t want to starve your baby, I’m very certain of that." He said softly while feeding me some soup that night and I was eating and crying because I felt so overwhelmed in a really ridiculous way.

I missed Blaze so much and wished he was here with me. He needs to come suffer as well since he’s the one that out this baby in me!

However when Kim offered to tell him the news, I instantly refused. What he went to take care of was very important and I didn’t want the news of my pregnancy to get in the way of what he and Roy were currently handling by making him abandon the work halfway and return to me. Sure, his presence would be extremely conforming but it wasn’t like I couldn’t survive without his presence. It’s been three days since he left, apparently there was more stuff needing taking care of over there, so now they’d stay two more days before returning.

I wasn’t the only one ssd about that. Kim was also sad because he had been looking forward to Roy returning back to him. It comforted me a little that I wasn’t the only one longing for my man to return back to me.

I was eating more now, but not like before, and definitely not like I was supposed to. The doctor said my appetite would gradually return and I was looking forward to that because I’ve ended up losing so much weight in just a few days, and I hated that.

San’s boyfriend arrived this afternoon and we were all gonna be having dinner tonight. I was sure I wouldn’t end up eating much, but I was looking forward to dinner because talking with everyone would help take my mind off the constant panic that was always dancing around in my mind since I discovered that I was pregnant.

"You okay?" San asked quietly and I nodded as I got to my feet. I had gotten carried away by thoughts here in the lounge and I felt a little embarrassed about that. San stared at me harder and asked me if I was certain, then he told me he was looking forward to tonight,

"I’m looking forward to meeting your boyfriend." I told him and he laughed heartily before waving at me as he existed the room.

I exited the room and summoned my magic, directing it at my feet till I was levitating and floating in the air. I floated forward; past halls after halls till I arrived at the secret passageway of the castle which would lead outside. Kim would flip should he realize what I was about to do, but sometimes this wall feels too confining and I want to breathe outside of it for a bit, but as a normal person and not as a king.

As soon as I slipped out the passageway, I used magic to change my clothes, then a long coat was draped over my head, all the way to my feet. And that was how I strolled the streets till I got too tired to walk, then I sat underneath a tree and let my thoughts flow free.

Once I have a child, what would I do if it ends up being a freak like me? Of course I won’t ever think a child of mine is a freak, but people are horrible and that’s exactly what they’d call him or her. What would I do if that happened?

When I realized how different I was from other boys, I wished that my parents had killed me at birth instead of letting me grow up like this.

If I birth someone that’s exactly like me, would I let the child grow up and resent themselves or am I supposed to do better by ending their life before they grow to learn how differently they would treat people they term as different?

I felt so conflicted and was starting to have a headache.

I let out a sigh as I got to my feet, preparing to return back to the palace. I guess I’d just think about this some other time.

When I returned back to the palace, Kim was worried and furious. I felt too weak to argue with him or defend myself, I knew what I did was reckless but it was either that or I end up breaking down.

As I dressed for tonight’s dinner, my mind felt a little lighter and I was glad I chose to take a walk outside the palace. Because I was in a good mood, I put some effort into how I looked, picking out clothes that enhanced all my features. As I combed my hair, I thought of Blaze, picturing how he’d currently be staring at me like I was a popsicle If he was here right now.

God, I miss him so.

When I was making my way to the dining room, Kim emerged, looking very worried and on the verge of tears. I instantly panicked and went into protective mode as he, accompanying him towards where he was currently leading me to, saying I’d understand when we got there.

I kept wondering what could have happened till we got to the room. However once the door got pushed open, the entire breath whooshed out of my lungs at the beautifully decorated room, with balloons and all, and in the middle of it all, was Blaze- on his knees, holding up a ring.

"Will you marry me, Labyrinth?"